This song is by John Legend and it is dedicated to my girlfriend, Abigail Joyce Dizon Solis...

Girl im in love with you
This ain't the honeymoon
Past the infatuation phase
Right in the thick of love
At times we get sick of love
It seems like we argue everyday

I know i misbehaved
And you made your mistakes
And we both still got room left to grow
And though love sometimes hurts
I still put you first
And we'll make this thing work
But I think we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

This ain't a movie no
No fairy tale conclusion ya'll
It gets more confusing everyday
Sometimes it's heaven sent
We head back to hell again
We kiss and we make up on the way

I hang up you call
We rise and we fall
And we feel like just walking away
But as our love advances
We take second chances
Though it's not a fantasy
I Still want you to stay

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow This time we'll take it slow

Take it slow
Maybe we'll live and learn
Maybe we'll crash and burn
Maybe you'll stay, maybe you'll leave,
maybe you'll return
Maybe you'll never find
Maybe we won't survive
But maybe we'll grow
You never know baby youuuu and I

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow

We're just ordinary people
We don't know which way to go
Cuz we're ordinary people
Maybe we should take it slow
This time we'll take it slow
This time we'll take it slow

I    and LOVE YOU at the same time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lately things havent been the same, let me name a couple.... me, my girlfriend, the way i act, etc. well my girlfriend hasnt been going home lately and all she does is go house to house asking for a place to stay. i dont blame her becuase of the problems her and her family is going through. but the thing that bothers me is that it seems like she doesnt want me as much anymore. i dont think im getting enough attention from her. it may seem like im the girl of the relationship but its just how i want to be felt by my girlfriend. i want to be cared, comforted, noticed but its not happening. shes just paying attention to her friends the most. i mean, i visit her jsut to spend as much time i have to be with her but when im there i dont feel any attention from her. i go unnoticed. the thing i hate that my girlfriend does is when we both argue she just ignores the problem without solving it with me. shell jsut say "your fucking getting on my nerves nick! fuch this shit" and then she would leave.. i really dont like that. the other thing that annoys me is that she is having more fun with her friends rather than me and her being with eachother. in my head i think that she likes it that way. but for me its way different... sometimes when i get home from visiting her or when i dont get the chance to see her i cry because i miss my girl too much!!! another thing that bothers me the most out of everything is the way my girlfriend talks.... at home or if shes with her typical friends shell talk all normal and shit but then when were at school or any other place the way she talks is way different! its like shes not herself because at school she talks like a white girl and at home or some other place itll be normal... it really bothers me! i dont know anymore.. i feel depressed i guess. we dont hang out as much anymore too! but i think its good that she has a break from her seeing me every single day. i think its a good i dea. theres so much going on, i feel stressed out alot! but i know my girlfriend is frustrated so much more than me! shes the only one i have because shes the girlfriend that is with me almost everyday than the other people i hang out with. alright im fnished with this entry... i think ima go take a nap or cry or something =( ok then i love you bey! peace!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

woah, i havent wrote in her for a long while.... well, i just wanted to write how i feel right now.. first, i want to tell you guys what i did. actually i did nothing except for my drivers training.. AGAIN! ahha yeah, i failed my last driving test but dont worry ill pass the next time i take my driving test... then two hours later i got home and did my homework, talked to my baby and thats it now im writing in here... okay here i go. iv'e been thinking lately and right now i jsut realized how i hurt my girlfriend so much (note: when i mean hurt, i dont mean hurt as in beat up my girlfriend) haha i always hurt her feelings and sometimes i have no reactions or emotions to what i do to her.. sometimes i jsut dont care. i  cuss at her, always give her an attitude when she doesnt even do anything bad, etc.  im hating myself right now =(  in my mind i think to myslef that i am the worst boyfriend ever!!!!!! i always do the stuff she doesnt want me doing such as talk about her ex- boyfriend constantly and other guys that shes only friends with.... i always seem to get jealous when she gives other people all the attention when she really gives me teh attention i want... gosh man i dont know why i always have these kind of bad and negative thoughts! Abby is the best thing that has ever happend to me, NO LIE! shes always been there for me and the best thing about her is that she when i do something bad she doesnt trip! shes so awesome man... hehe yeah i stole that word AWESOME from her. DAMN.. i jsut hope i change before everyhting gets even worse for the both of us. i really dont want to lose this girl, all the memories we had and all the times we spent together, i jsut dont want to lose all of that.. im loving the things we share with eachother. i try not to bring her down sometimes, i try hard, but still i cant resist from hurting her.. i dont know whats up with me!!! well i was bored so i made this poem for abby...... here it goes

             Love isn't perfect. It isn't a fairytale or a storybook, and it doesn't always come easy. Love is overcoming obstacles, facing challenges, fighting to be together, holding on and never letting go, it is a short word, easy to spell, difficult to define, impossible to live without, Love is work, but most of all, love is realizing that every hour, every minute, every second of it was worth it because you did it ... TOGETHER.

ABBY if your reading this i jsut want you to know that I LOVE YOU TO THE FULLEST!!!!!!!!!!! i dont ever want to let you out of my sight.. im sorry for being a jerk all the time, but i hope we can keep this up for a really long time, i dont want to lose you.. well this entry was pretty random but i jsut wanted to write in here because of how i feel for you and how bad i treat you.. im just sorry for all the wrong i did to you!! just always remember, i will never forget the times we shared, all the memories, EVERYTHING!!! and know for a fact that you will always be in my heart and i love you.. i will never stop loving you bey..